Tuesday, November 30, 2010

No one to blame but myself

So I went for my weigh in today totally dreading it.  I was going to skip but I forced myself to face the scale.  I was going to have to pay either way (if I was more than 2 pounds above goal or if I skipped a month) so I just sucked it up and went.  My current weight is 152, which is no surprise.  And now I'm not going to deny it anymore, I need to get myself back together!!  I am proud that I maintained at or below goal for 16 consecutive months, but I'm sad and disappointed in myself this month.

I have been doing pretty good with the tracking, but I get the munchies after dinner and then get out of control.  So that needs to stop!  I need to be accountable to myself - I'm only cheating myself.

I need to attend a WW meeting next week as they are launching the new program.  I am very interested to learn about it.  Maybe it will give me the extra boost off this plateau I'm on.  I tried my punishment pants on - they're still pretty punishing!!

I did pretty good sticking to my goals for November, I'll set my December ones tomorrow.

In other news, I finished Christmas shopping for M.  Well it's a combo bday / christmas shopping because his bday is the day before mine (his is december 15).  I did it all online and so far only 2 of 5 things have arrived so I'm a bit nervous!  But it's only December 1!!

I'm counting down to Christmas Break and seeing my Fam!!!  Only 15.5 work days :)

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Not Again!

So the Riders bombed in the Grey Cup again this year.  I am not impressed.  My mom found this gem of a picture - from Christmas 1989



But I did enjoy watching the game on Marc's new 55 inch tv.  It's pretty awesome and now we're probably going to be even bigger couch potatoes than we are now!   Except he moved his "smaller" (40 inch) tv into the bedroom, so we might just be lounging in bed all the time!

I have been okay about staying on track.  I did use all my weeklies this week, which when I'm trying to lose I don't normally eat.  Hopefully I can see some action on the scale because I am getting frustrated.

My knee gets better everyday.  I can't wait to get back to bootcamp, hopefully after Christmas.

Only 17.5 work days until Christmas break :D

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Busy Busy Busy

Well I've been a busy girl.  Back to work at school and at London Drugs.  I had a busy week at school and also worked all weekend at LD.  We went out for dinner at Moti Mahal last night - yummy!  I had to work this afternoon so we pvr'd the football game - so much better than watching the commercials!  I'm super pumped that the Riders are going to the Grey Cup!  I won't be there this year (and therefore won't be on tv, lol) but I'll be watching!!  Hopefully they can make up fore their bozo mistake that lost them the game last year.

I tracked pretty good all week and have been feeling pretty energetic.  My belly is still kinda jelly, and my favorite jeans are now what I call my "punishment pants".  I wear them alot to remind myself how uncomfortable I am and that I want them to fit.  They are a pair of Seven's that I bought second hand and they don't have much life left in them (I've pretty much worn them out) so I want to be able to enjoy wearing them (not being punished by them, haha).

Have a great on plan week!

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Just keep tracking.......just keep tracking

So getting back on track has been going well.  I have written down everything I've consumed in the past two days.  I've also rediscovered Crystal Light.  I was having a hard time getting my water down but Crystal Light kicks it up a notch and makes it yummy and sweet (which is what I crave the most - candy, chocolate, sweets of all kinds).  I bought some of my favorite treats from my losing days - most importantly 1 point jello pudding!  After only 2 days on track I'm already feeling better.  Less bloated, and more energetic.  I missed these feelings!

My knee has been very sore.  I have an appointment with the sports med doc on Thursday, hopefully he can figure it out.

I've been reading on the ww discussion boards about the new program coming out in a few weeks.  I'm not sure how I feel about it.  I'll see what it's about but I might just stick with the current plan - it works for me!

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Back to Work!!

Today was the last day of my leave from work.  I go back to school tomorrow and back to London Drugs next weekend.

My mom left (after 19 days) on Thursday.  We did pretty good, but were starting to drive each other a bit crazy by the end.  That's what happens when you're together pretty much 24/7 in a one bedroom apartment!  I'll miss her, and can't wait to go to my parents house for Christmas.

I had a good weekend with my friend J.  We had lots of fun but I am tired.  Might have 1 too many (alright, about 5 too many) drinks on Friday night and I'm still bouncing back from that!  Definitely can't party like I used to!

Physio has been going well and I'm getting anxious to have my knee work like it used to.

I am back on track tomorrow with WW.  Writing everything down, staying in my 23 points and drinking tons of water!

Have a great week!

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I'm Back!

So it's been awhile since I've been able to post anything.  I had my knee surgery on October 25 in Golden, BC.  We went out on Sunday and stayed in a nice condo at Kicking Horse.  It had a hot tub on the deck and was fun.  Monday morning we headed into the hospital for my surgery.  I had to be there at 9 and my surgery finally happened just before 11.  The surgeon insisted I be awake for the surgery which really creeped me out.  They totally froze my knee and then gave me lots of drugs to keep me calm but it was still very odd.  At the end of the surgery they did have to knock me out.  They looked at all my ligaments (which I could see on the tv in the operating room) and they were in decent shape so they had to figure out why my knee was giving me so much trouble.  Turns out I have damaged the cartilage under my knee cap and the ligament holding my knee cap in place wasn't doing it's job.  So they did some kind of release on that ligament which should keep my kneecap in place better.




I wasn't in too much pain as we were leaving the hospital because my leg was still pretty numb.  But once we got back to the condo I was very sore.  And the Tylenol 3 gave me such bad stomachaches that it was fairly unpleasant.  We spent the night in Golden then headed back to Calgary Tuesday morning.  The rest of the week was a blur of painkillers and sitting on the couch.

My first outing was to Market Mall because we read online that they have scooters available to borrow.  It was fun cruising around but I was very very tired when we got home.  We also had to go to Weight Watchers because it was the end of the month.  I am up to 151 pounds but the drugs were making me retain tons of water.



Last week I started physio and it was not fun!  My knee is very stiff and does not want to cooperate!  But it's slowly getting better.  It's still very swollen and I have one tiny knee and one big puffy fat knee!  Friday night we went to the Hitman game and the Saddledome is not very accessible!  So many stairs and hardly any elevators.  I was exhausted when we got home and my knee was very sore yesterday.

This week will go by fast.  I have a few physio appointments and on Thursday my mom is leaving and my friend Jay is coming for the weekend.  We are going to have so much fun!  I am excited for her to come and visit but I won't mind when everyone goes home.  I have hardly been alone in almost three weeks!

Monday I am getting back on the weight watching train.  I need to get the scale moving in the right direction.  Soon I can get back to working out which makes me so happy!  I just realized it's been two years since I started WW.  I am so glad that I did it.  There's been ups and downs (literally!) but it's totally worth it :) 

Have a great week!